**This is an older post that I have been holding on to.. I am fine and in much better mindset! THIS POST CONTAINS POSSIBLY TRIGGERING CONTENT. PLEASE READ AT YPUR DISCRETION I thought about suicide today. The first day in a year. The. First. Day. In. A. Year. I’ve thought about suicide. It hurts toContinue reading “Suicide”

Not okay

I stand in the shower. Hot water running down my body. Tears flowing from my eyes. I’m not okay. I know I’m not okay. It’s been a year. My medicine isn’t working the same. I’m in a rut and I can’t get out. I’m starving but I can’t eat. I wanna go places but IContinue reading “Not okay”

Facebook Dating Turns into Love

Okay okay okay. I made you guys wait long enough to tell you about Michael. Almost 2 years ago I met Mike. We met on Facebook dating app. I downloaded the app because I was bored and I really just wanted someone to waste my time. He was looking for a “friends with benefits” typeContinue reading “Facebook Dating Turns into Love”

Anxiety is…

Anxiety is intense, excessive, and persistent worry and fear about everyday situations.That is the text book definition but let me tell you what anxiety is to me. Anxiety is the mild panic when I am parked facing away from the school bus stop because somehow I convince myself we are going to miss the hugeContinue reading “Anxiety is…”